Sunday, October 05, 2008

Goodbye my lover

so finally, new school, new semester coming up, and i'm looking forward to get my life back together. The league has ended and the weekly friday and weekend rituals will be missed but it might not necessarily be all bad with no more inconsiderate people and unwelcomed tension.
The only thing is i'm getting fat again and all those beers ain't helping at all! I'm promising myself that i got to sign up for a trek at the end of the year.

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after watching so many stupid fairy tale dramas and dreaming of having 一场轰轰烈烈的爱情, i did have it afterall. 即使并没有天长地久而且还挫折不断, but i wouldn't have wanted it otherwise. Admist all those dramas, i had many times asked myself if i still love and althought everytime i didnt really answer myself, but i knew. I didn't have to answer myself cos i knew. Like i knew it was love at first sight and nothing else can be compared. the only thing i didnt know was how to go on. so scared of the differences and so unsure. i never doubted that love conquers all and i had hoped for it so, but i hate to admit it, we are just all not brave enough to believe. God makes a fool of all of us.

At the end of the day, i just couldnt conjure up enough thats why i left it the way it was. somehow the fear of uncertainty and insecurity, was just more than that fear of losing by just that bit. cos it almost seemed like i saw the end of the road.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Maybe you too.

ps. i miss you

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