Wednesday, April 21, 2004

The 3rd chapter of my life has just ended with the end of this semester (hopefully)
First Chapter – from birth to secondary sch
Second Chapter – a most wonderful one indeed, my 2 years in Jc
Third Chapter – The start of uni
The end of my first year in nus, the coming end of my time in Rovers (finally),
A time to start anew….

Chapters in my life start with an old me and ends with a new me
The first chapter of my life,
I lived for my mum, lived for my sister and hasn’t a single idea of who I am and my direction in life.
The second chapter of my life…
A different environment which I should have been in from the beginning… it came too late,
I start to discover myself, learning to live for myself, still very much dependent on my sister, mindset and perspective of things have changed and looking forward to life with me.
The third chapter of my life…
A start to what I am going to morph into, understanding and experiencing life…
Still learning to live for myself, getting out from that little protected shell of mine, found yet another me, getting into shits, feeling lousy bout myself, feeling lost, questioning myself and changing.

In every chapter, I grow, I change and find more of myself.
Hopefully tis chapter will end and a new chapter will begin...

Setbacks are inevitable in life and we have to learn to accept it,
Fall, fall hard but don’t forget to pick urself up again.
Dun forget that there are always the little plaesures in life,
Dun forget that there are always friends,
There’s more to life than tis shits…
Dun be too hard on urself

Okie… I have only slept 1 hr and eaten 2 meals for the pass 2 days and although I finished my exams.. I knoe i totally screwed up. My brain is dead but my eyes are still opened.
Since my eyes refuses to close, I juz might well consolidated my thoughts a little…
Well those thoughts are easy to put down in words,
Doubt I’ll ever do it in action.
Stupid me… feeling lousy bout myself again…
I never seem to get things right and I juz suck…
I’m juz a stubborn, lazy, irritating, mindless, useless undeserving fool who doesn’t know and understand the inner workings of that pea brain of mine and will never get things rite.
Worthless.....

Partial liberation from hell… exams are over…
Exams are over??… haha… y am I not excited…

For those of u who got throught with all tis rubbish.. this are juz rantings....



He who binds to himself a joy,
Doth the winged life destroy
But he who kisses the joy as it flies,
Lives in Eternity's sunrise

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