Thursday, March 25, 2004

Finally when I decided to go for my maths lecture... there's no more lecture... haha
well.. might as well... so i have time now to crap...

The past 2 weeks has not been good...
all the ups and downs...
happy times and sad times(mostly)...
misunderstandings after misunderstandings...
trashing things out and going back to square one again...
haha... i wonder how can so many things happen in juz less then 2 weeks...
less then 2 weeks of knowing each other...
is this a blessing in disguise hinting me to step back or should i juz remain where i am and "enjoy" the happy times for now...?

I dunnoe ... i really dunnoe...
my mind thinks rationally but my heart goes otherwise...
i'm falling so deep into this abyss.. till the point of no return..
i want to stop deluding myself... but i cant convince myself to do it...
i wish that there's juz this little bit of hope for me...
i dunnoe.... are u giving me this hope or am i juz deceiving myself...

I wished that u had a choice... i really wished...
then we wont be both stuck in this dilemma...
but even if u had a choice... i'm scared...
i'm scared of the outcome...
scared of the possible finally blow which will have to wake me up from this dream...

i'm so selfish... i knoe...
i dun wan u to decide...
cos i knoe that it will be the end...
i rather be deluded and be in this dream... cos i dun wish to lose u...
that little bit of u that i have... that little bit that i hope to own..

my life is really in such a mess now...
i only hope that u can make it better....

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